Tuesday, January 31, 2012

once upon a time.

A boy will never forget the girl he could've had.
A girl will never forget the boy she should've had.
If you're lucky enough to be different, don't change.
He made me feel like the world was lucky to have me.
If you treat me right, I'll treat you better.
Pinterest. It's like fantasy football. For girls.
Just because you have a place in my heart doesn't
mean you'll always have a place in my life.
Instead of thinking about what you're missing try
thinking about what you have that everyone else
is missing.
I won't be impressed with technology until I can download food.
Problem: Miss a step on stairs. Mini heart attack.
You'll never know how strong you are, until being
strong is the only choice you have.
No matter how strong a girl is, she always has a breaking point.
Shut up, wipe those tears from your eyes. Print out a picture of him, and throw darts at it until there's a hole in your bedroom wall. Look in the mirror and scream until you can't breathe. Blast your favorite song and laugh. I want you to find yourself again. Because the girl I knew six months ago before she met that butthole who changed her temporarily used to not give a crap about what people said. He destroyed you, and nobody messes with my friends, give me his number; his life is about to be hell.
View your life with kind sight. Stop beating yourself up about things from your past. Instead of slapping your forehead and asking: "What was I thinking?" Breathe and ask the kinder question: "What was I learning?"
Those nights where you have second thoughts about everything and nothing feels right anymore.
Dear boys, if you're going to lay down and make a baby, get prepared to stand up and be a daddy.
Don't let insecurity destroy the beauty you were born with.
We think we know who we are but we don't, not
until something bad happens to us.
- Pretty Little Liars
There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance. We need to learn to love ourselves first, in all our glory and our imperfections. If we cannot love ourselves, we cannot fully open to our ability to love others or our potential to create. Evolution and all hopes for a better world rest in the fearlessness and open-hearted vision of people who embrace life.
I thought you'd always be the one constant in my life, the one person I could rely on, I was wrong.
"He's not perfect. You aren't either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold onto him and give him the most you can. He isn't going to quote poetry, he's not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don't hurt him, don't change him, and don't expect more than he can give. Don't analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he's not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don't exist, but there's always one guy that is perfect for you."
- Bob Marley
Three things I want in a relationship: Eyes that won't cry, lips that won't lie, and love that won't die.
- Wiz Khalifa
Sometimes it lasts in love but sometimes it hurts instead.

Sunday, January 29, 2012

Everytime I think of you, I fall all over again.

So I had a post in the making the other night...then my computer restarted itself. UGH. Oh well, I'm catching up on recording movies this weekend so I will be working on a HUGE one. If anything repeats, I deeply apologize.
That awkward moment when you gently throw your phone onto your bed and it decides to bounce off three walls, and knock over a lamp.
We're like dominoes. I fall for you,
you fall for someone else.
My bed is so much comfier in the morning than at night.
Oh good, you've unfriended me on Facebook. Now will
you please apply that to real life and leave me the
heck alone.
It's easier to memorize a song than the steps on
how to do your math homework.
Save yourself for the guy with class -
not the teen with pants down his butt.
Those girls on "My Super Sweet 16" that get ticked when
daddy buys them the wrong car. Girl please, I don't
even have a bike.
He's got this thing about him, I just can't put a finger on it. Something about him, the way his hair lies on his head, the way he walks, or the way he talks. I feel my heart racing whenever he walks in my direction or looks at me with such piercing eyes, I almost fall over, he makes me lose my balance and act like such a fool.
But I tried, I've tried to explain myself to you. I tried to tell you how it's not easy for me to open up to you. But you just don't get it, nobody gets it but me. I've built a wall around myself but I don't know hoe to break it down. I want to, I really do, but it's hard. And I'm denying you because of it. Just please don't give up on me. Please.
I remember every word you said, okay? I'm not naive and I'm not stupid. I've been broken before. I can deal with it. I'm not scared of moving on with my life. What I'm scared of is that I'll realize somewhere along the road that you were my life.
Don't be flattered that he misses you. He should miss you. You're deeply missable. However, he's still the same person who broke your heart. Remember, the only reason he can miss you is because he's choosing, every day, not to be with you.
I look back and I'm far from the girl I used to be, don't care what anyone says, I'm gonna take my pride in that.
It's a trip ya know? When you're a kid, you have this picture of how your life is gonna be, and it never crosses your mind that it's not gonna end up like that.
I don't care how far you are from me, or how long it's been since we've talked. I don't care how mad I got at you, or how mad you've been at me. You're still what matters most to me, and I'm never going to give that up.
She's the girl that believes that what comes around goes around. The one that hopes for a better day. The one that won't give up on you. She's the girl that's unlike the rest. The one that spent her days smiling, and her nights crying. She's the girl that would love to be loved. The one that looks so strong, but feels so weak. She's the girl that picks herself up every time she falls.
Even when your heart is breaking, you should smile. and some may think that it's bad to hide your feelings, but I think that pain should only be felt for a short amount of time. Happiness should out number it every day, every way.
If there's anything I've learned in this whole getting over you process, it's that you're always going to mean something to me no matter what happens. You're always gonna be somewhere deep down inside me. Even when I'm happily married to the man of my dreams, if I were to run into you on the street and those gorgeous blue eyes were to meet mine, my heart would skip a beat because I'll never forget you and the way you made me feel when we were young and stupidly in love.
For the first time in my life, I feel like I'm doing something right, because when I look at him, it's there. In everything he does to me, it's there. I don't know what it is, but I know that it is there, and it's never going to leave.
And the harsh reality of life is that you are going to hurt. You're going to cry over a silly boy - your heart's going to be broken. But you have to pull yourself together so people don't see how vulnerable you are because once people see vulnerability, they take advantage of you. And the whole process starts all over again.
A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He'll smile at you, but he'll never laugh at your heart. He'll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He'll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He'll call to say goodnight or just cause he is thinking of you. He'll look in your eyes and tell you, you're the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you'll believe it.
I'm scared. I'm scared that I'm not going to be okay. That maybe it's not going to work out in the end. Maybe that's giving up hope, but maybe it's thinking logically. I've had too much time alone to think about this. But it's like I've had this time because I actually give a crap about people. I have compassion. Apparently, I'm the only one. I never got the memo to give up on your best friends.
You taught me many things, like how it feels to miss someone so bad it feels like a part of you is missing. I can tell you one thing, now that you have gone I never will forget you. You left your mark.
If you really knew me, you would know that I loved my ex boyfriend with everything I had, and over a year later, I still can't completely let it go. You would know that I still blame everything that happened between him and I entirely on myself, and sometimes that weight is more than I can bear. If you really knew me, you would know to look past the smile because I am hardly ever a happy person.
I hope you know that you were once the most important person in my life for a very long time. You were the guy I thought about while listening to all those songs, the one guy who made me actually look forward to waking up in the morning, you were the guy who could make or break me, who had my heart, but never bothered to do anything about it.
This time, you can blame me. This time, I won't be sitting around crying; I'll be up all night partying with my best frineds. This time, I won't be listening to sad songs, I'll be driving around in my car blasting Single Ladies. Finally, when they ask who broke up with you this time - I can say I dumped you.
Just because you see someone smile, doesn't mean that it's the same story inside. Fake smiles sometimes seem so realistic, they are used to cover up problems when it feles like there's no point in telling anyone what's going on because you feel hopeless. Whenever someone fake smiles, what they truly want to do is burst out in tears, but they are keeping it in and holding it together so no one else finds out the pain that they are going through.
"You think the only people who are people, are the people who look and think like you. But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger, you'll learn things you never knew."
- Pocahontas
The awkward moment when you realize everyone just saw you do something extremely stupid.
I'm that type of person that wants to get good grades, but doesn't want to study.
Distance sucks. The kitchen is so far from the couch.
When you're in a relationship, everyone wants you.
But when you're single; nothing...
Find someone worth your tears, worth your laughter,
worth your heart and that loves you as much
as you love them.
When everything in life gets so complicated it only takes a day to change it.
Sometimes people don't notice the things we do for them until we stop doing them.
I love those random memories that make me smile
no matter what is going on in my life right now.
The happiest people aren't the ones who have everything, they're the ones who make the best out of everything they have.
New year, new experiences, new memories.
People break up all the time, mainly for the wrong reasons. They let the smallest things tear them apart.
Relationships end because once the person has you, they stop doing the things it took to get you.
Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse then you finally feel it.
- Dumbledore
No matter how messed up you think you are, there will always be someone that loves you and still thinks you're amazing.
Only a few people care, the rest are just curious.
It's okay to visit memory lane, once in
a while, just don't live there...
Butterflies can't see their wings. They can't see how
beautiful they are. But everyone else can. People are like that.
The prettiest smiles, have the darkest secrets. The prettiest
eyes, have cried the most tears. The kindest heart, have felt
the most pain.
A jealous woman, does better research than the FBI.
Every girl before me was a mistake,
every girl after me is a downgrade.
The biggest challenge in life is that you will find it almost impossible to defeat, it is the fact that you give up on something you could have had. You quit before something could take place. You say you are going to change, but really you are still the same, and no matter how much the truth may scare you, in one point in your life, you are going to have to overcome your gears.
I am not looking for a lifetime lover, I am only trying to find someone that I can be myself with. Someone there to share things with. Someone who will always care, one who would make me laugh. And dry my tears, one who would worry about me. Wonder about me in class and dream about me. But most of all I am looking for someone who wants to be with me as much as I want to be with them.
Sometimes, no matter how much faith we have, we lose people. But, we never forget them, and sometimes, it's those memories that give us the faith to go on.
Don't promise me the moon, or the stars.
Just promise me that you will stay under them with me.
I like sleeping. It's like death without commitment.
A relationship should be a balance between two people.
One person shouldn't be giving, while the other is only taking.
You deserve someone who jumps fences to be with you, not someone who's on the fence about being with you.
Boys don't realize how much one little thing can upset a girl.
You do look pretty. At night. Behind a wall. With a bag on
top of your head. To a blind person. If they turned around.
Just maybe.
The sky isn't always blue, the sun doesn't always shine, and it's okay to fall apart sometimes.
I'm not going to talk to you for a while. I need you to
miss me. I need you to appreciate having me in your life.
(sorry for the cussing, but I thought this was perfect.)
So, please, just be patient. I'm so afraid to care about someone. I know it seems like I'm this strong girl who can get through anything, but inside I'm very fragile. I've had so many things thrown at me, and each one has only made a crack. What I'm afraid of is shattering.
I love how we're not all kissy all the time. How we can argue and just mess around. We don't have to show other people how much we love each other, because all that really matters is that you and I both know.
When boys share everything with you and there are no secrets or lies in your relationship. ♥
I don't care about my ex, I'm not worried who's next. I
just care that you're in my life and I swear you're the best.
Missing someone is a part of loving them. If you're
never apart, you'll never really know how strong
your love is.
Don't say you're happy because everything's alright. Be
happy because even when everything's complicated, you're
still doing fine.
You usually find what you're looking for the
moment you stop looking for it.
If you're ever in love with two people, pick the second,
because if you were truly in love with the first, you
never would have fallen.
- Johnny Depp
Whenever you have to make a decision, flip a coin;
Not because it decides for you, but for the moment
it's in the air, you realize what you're hoping for.
Looks may attract a person but your personality
is what keeps them there.
The people I admire are the ones who carved a life for themselves after their dream died.
- One Tree Hill
If your live ended right now, could you honestly
say that you lived it the way you wanted?
Stop having to learn the hard way.
She generally gave herself very good advice, though she seldom followed it.
All I want is someone who will stay, no matter
how hard it is to be with me.
Life is divine chaos: embrace it.
Always say goodnight with a kiss, not an argument.
If you fight like a married couple, talk like best friends, flirt like a first love, protect each other like siblings, it's meant to be.
I don't know that love changes. People change. Circumstances change.
- Nicholas Sparks
Shine like a star, dream like a child, fly like a bird. No rules, no limits.
You haven't lost your smile. It's right under
your nose. You just forgot it was there.