Thursday, March 14, 2013

I wait for the days where I will forget who you are. When the taste of your name sounds old and worn. I wait for the days when I won't remember why I needed you so bad. Insomnia is a kind of torture. Because while the world is fast asleep, you're up all alone. Your mind buzzing with every random thought in the universe. And sometimes, the thoughts will reach a standstill, and your mind goes blank. You become more aware of the silence. And it's during this moment that you realize how alone you are. If someone really wanted you, they would have tried to show it. If they didn't, screw them and find someone who actually will. Don't waste your time on somebody who doesn't know what they want, because someone out there knows what they want; it's you, and only you. When you truly care for someone, their mistakes never change our feelings. Because it's the mind that gets angry, but the heart still cares. I think every day is made up of tiny little tests. Some are tests of character, some are tests of fortitude. Others are tests of friendship. And if you're lucky, when it really matters, you'll pass with flying colors. I promise that one day you'll meet a person, who will completely stop you in your tracks and take your breath away. It's going to be so unexpected but just remember to not let that moment pass. They don't occur often. Nobody is perfect, and nobody deserves to be perfect. Nobody has it easy, everyone has issues. You never know what people are going through. So pause before you start judging, mocking or criticizing others. Everybody is fighting their own war. I'm not one of the prettiest girls around, but you make me feel so beautiful when I'm with you. When somebody tells you that you are not good enough, that is when you know you are better. Some days, you'll feel sad without knowing why. Like you lost something very precious but forgot what it was, or you miss someone you never met. When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody, you want the rest of your life to start as soon as possible. Love is passion, obsession; someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy, and who will love you the same way back. And how to do you find them? Forget your head and listen to your heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because the truth is there is no sense in living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love; well, you haven't really lived at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived. Through humor, you can soften some of the worst blows that life delivers. And once you find laughter, no matter who painful your situation might be, you can survive it. In life, you will realize that there is a purpose for every person you meet. Some are there to test you, some will use you, some will teach you, and some will bring out the best in you. Don't ask what the world needs. Ask what makes you come alive and go do it, because what the world needs is people who come alive. At this moment, I feel completely at ease, completely happy. Nothing can ruin this feeling, nothing and nobody. I've finally come to accept things as they are, and it may not be perfect, but it sure feels close. You never lose by loving. You always lose by holding back. I hope you're happy now. I hope she was worth it. I hope she is a million times better than me and that you can't live without her. I hope she's your everything. I hope she gives you butterflies and takes your breath away. I hope she's prettier than me and she's a better person. I hope she's smart and creative and everything else I failed to be. I hope this lasts forever; I hope it never ends. I hope everyone loves her. I hope you're loving life. I hope you're done with your old ways and I hope you're a better person because of her. I hope she's everything I'm not. Actually, I hope she gives you herpes. (HA!) If you can't be kind, be quiet.